alex_xd

Mon, 31 Dec 2007 21:38:53 GMT

who wants to be my "ed buddy?"
we can fast together/ try out diets/ and support each other, and try to avoid struggles:depression, avoiding friends, binges, drama, anything! (it could be nothing to do with ED too!)
Somebody that I can keep in contact with.
Hmm. I live in Southern California. And I have an at&t/cingular phone. (Im fine with communicating with ANYONE in the US, you don't need to be in Cali :)
I also have myspace and AIM. But I'm not quite comfortable putting that up on the internet, cuz you know [: But just ask, and I'll give it to ya!
I really want somebody to talk to alot, so i don't need to go through the trouble of logging on to LiveJournal whenever i need AMAZING help :P
SO ya, anybody that is comfortable texting me?? /:

Fri, 02 Nov 2007 04:24:51 GMT

My Stupid ABC Diet starts tomorrow. (Nov2- Dec22)

I just looked this up:
SIGNS OF A MENTAL ILLNESS-
In adults
* Confused thinking
* Long-lasting sadness or irritability
* Extreme highs and lows in mood
* Excessive fear, worrying or anxiety
* Social withdrawal
* Dramatic changes in eating or sleeping habits
* Strong feelings of anger
* Delusions or hallucinations (seeing or hearing things that are not really there)
* Increasing inability to cope with daily problems and activities
* Thoughts of suicide
* Denial of obvious problems
* Many unexplained physical problems
* Abuse of drugs and/or alcohol
In older children and pre-teens
* Abuse of drugs and/or alcohol
* Inability to cope with daily problems and activities
* Changes in sleeping and/or eating habits
* Excessive complaints of physical problems
* Defying authority, skipping school, stealing or damaging property
* Intense fear of gaining weight
* Long-lasting negative mood, often along with poor appetite and thoughts of death
* Frequent outbursts of anger
In younger children
* Changes in school performance
* Poor grades despite strong efforts
* Excessive worrying or anxiety
* Hyperactivity
* Persistent nightmares
* Persistent disobedience and/or aggressive behavior
* Frequent temper tantrums

I HAVE EVERY SINGLE ONE UNDER ADULTS, TEENS, AND YOUNG CHILDREN.
WHAT THE FUCK

im so scared.
But then I think...
Do you think people with a mental sickness can realize they have it without even being diagnosed?

On the next subject:
Fuck fat
Fuck candy
Fuck Halloween
Fuck being 15
Fuck being jealous
Fuck my parents fighting
Fuck being dumb
Fuck having no control.
I hate this.
I WILL BE THIN.
I promise <3

Got myself an ABC Buddy, she is going to stick with me and Im gunna stick with her throught the next 50 days <3
[:

Sat, 27 Oct 2007 22:14:39 GMT

What the hell.
I hate my friend. She doesn't understand that I need some alone time with ME. Ughhh. She makes me SO angry, I just want to cuss her out and confront her about EVERYTHING, and how FAKE she is, and how much fucking make-up she wears, and how she is somebody TOTALLY DIFFERENT around boys, and how it's SO MEAN criticizing people behind there backs.
UGH.
And when she asks. "What wrong today?"
TODAY!? What the fuck? Like there is something wrong EVERYDAY.

Ugh cant she see that I'm NOT HAPPY as of right now? Can't she see that I need some time alone with myself to recover from this long dreadful stage of insecurity/ depression that she isn't even CLOSE TO UNDERSTANDING?